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A STORY OF: ONE GAY LIFE
JOHNNY’S
JOURNAL
Chapter
16
We Are Family . . .
Steven was very understanding; unbelievably so for what I
had done. We talked a lot about it in bed that night, and
I promised never to keep anything from him again, no
matter what. I don't know how I would have coped if he had
demanded Brian moved out, and he had every right to for
our home and everything we had was a product of our twelve
years together, it wasn't just mine. How could I have
chosen between them? I loved them both, probably more than
either of them would ever know. So thankfully it never
came to that. We didn't have sex that night. Instead we
cuddled up closely to fall asleep, each telling the other
we loved them, but not before Steven had made a joke about
my yearning for youth, saying we'd need an awful big house
one day if I was to keep bringing my chickens home!
There
was a soft knock on the bedroom door around nine o'clock.
We were already awake, lying there discussing some of the
decorating that was needed, so we shouted for him to come
in. Brian poked his head around the door and, after first
apologising for drinking too much last night, he asked if
we would like tea or coffee in bed. Coffee would be great,
we told him. He was only wearing his skiddies when he
reappeared minutes later carrying a tray with three large
mugs of coffee. Placing the tray on the bedside cabinet
closest to the door, and next to Steven, he took his mug
and turned to leave the room, saying he'd see us later.
"You can have yours in here with us if you want," Steven
said, moving over and invitingly lifting the duvet.
Brian looked at him, and then over him straight at me with
a dead serious face, not knowing what to do.
"Get in," I told him, "It seems Steven guessed about us
within the first hour. He's okay with it. We just mustn't
do anything to hurt him - no secrets. Not that you've got
any anyway - it was him who undressed you last night!"
Blushing, and nervously, Brian put his coffee back on the
tray and slid into the bed. In one move Steven rolled him
over the top of him so that he finished up lying between
us, and then to put his mind at ease he kissed him on the
cheek. I did likewise, on the other cheek, at the
same time sliding my hand down under the covers to explore
him. Steven was already there. Pushing my hand away, he
laughed at me as he slapped it teasingly.
"Oh, God! You guys are wonderful," Brian said, and then
turned to look at Steven. "I'm sorry Steven, I wasn't
trying to steal him from you, honestly I wasn't. I didn't
want to hurt you at all. I just wanted to be near him. I
can't help it, I love him too. I think I love you both
now. You're two wonderful guys."
"I'm as horny as hell at the moment," Steven said, guiding
Brian's hand down to where throbbed the raging proof.
"Gonna let me as well as Johnny?"
Brian's eyes opened wide with the surprise of it. "Oh, my
God! With that? I don't think I'm ready for it. Johnny
hasn't even done that to me. Honestly, he hasn't. Nobody
has."
Opening a new bottle of poppers from the drawer, I told
Brian to take a couple of big sniffs, and then I pushed
his head down towards Steven's raging torment. Going for
Britain he was on it, pleasurably moaning at the same
time, when I took a couple of big sniffs myself and proved
to him that Colgate weren't the only ones to know a few
things about rings. Of course, that was something else he
had never experienced.
Brian's eyes were rolling around. He was in ecstasy,
seventh heaven, moaning and groaning, and falling onto his
back now desperately needing to relieve his own
enragement, he went at frantically. After a big sniff
each, we passed him the bottle, and lifting his legs took
it in turns.
"Oh, my God! Oh, my God! Oooh! Ooooooh! Oh, yes! Oh! Oh!"
How many orgasms Brian actually achieved, God only knows!
Thoroughly depleted, running on empty, he was still going
for it and having them. Finally, exhausted, we all
collapsed in a heap, and hugging each other tightly, with
Brian in the middle, we drifted off into a lovely deep
sleep.
We woke up about an hour later. Brian was still utterly
whacked-out (spell it any way you wish!). Looking pasty,
and with bloodshot eyes, he had the most humungous grin
written all across his face.
"Oh, I love you guys so much," he said, giving us both a
real deep kiss, and putting his arms around us for equal
hugs.
"I think we both love you too," I told him, so happy that
everything had turned out all right, now between the three
of us.
No decorating was done that day, we were all far too tired
to consider it. Even Sunday lunch was too much trouble.
Instead we sauntered into the town and had a meal at the
Mayflower - Chinese, but we'd already discovered it did a
great British Sunday roast. There was still time
afterwards for a couple of refreshing drinks at the Monty,
so we headed for there.
As we came up the slope, approaching the pub from the town
centre, I groaned. It was a warm day, and Rosie was out
the front with some of her cronies. A lot of other people
were out there too. I wondered: what wickedness would her
tongue find employment with today? We nodded politely as
we passed them to go in.
 Inside
we suddenly became aware that Brian, who was last in the
line, was no longer with us, so we rushed outside again.
We found him up the side alleyway, backed up against the
wall, where Rosie along with her cronies were giving him a
lot of stick, even calling him a rent boy. Taking both
Brian and me totally by surprise, Steven put his arm
around the wicked queen's neck and dragged her backwards
out onto the footpath. Rosie was sizeable by anyone's
standards, and one who had a hell of a reputation. There
were few who would take her on. She smiled contemptuously
before taking a swing at Steven. He easily sidestepped it,
almost gracefully, and then landed a solid right-hand jab
into the queen's stomach so her chin came forward as she
doubled up. Quickly following it with a magnificent left
hook to that now vulnerable chin, he sent her reeling.
Knocked right off her feet, and hitting the ground hard,
she was out for the count!
In all the years Steven and I had been together I'd never
once known him to be violent, or even in the slightest way
aggressive. I was amazed at his fighting capabilities.
Absolutely gobsmacked! The cronies fast disappeared into
the woodwork, whilst the rest of them out there cheered
loudly, which only brought others out to see what was
happening.
As Rosie uneasily scrambled to her feet, staggering around
stupidly and hardly knowing what day it was, Steven calmly
told her: "That's only a sample of what you'll get if you
take the piss out of any one of us again. There is no rent
here. We, darling, are family!" Rosie chose to slink away,
totally humiliated.
Another loud cheer went up, and we went back inside to
order our drinks, this time along with Brian. Many of our
friends, and other patrons of the pub, rallied around
Steven congratulating him, whilst some bright spark kicked
the juke box into playing: "We Are Family", a recent hit
by Sister Sledge! Then before we had a chance to pay for
our drinks, Ron, the landlord, having by now been brought
up to date with what had occurred outside, rushed up to
say they were on the house - he'd waited an awful long
time to see Rosie get her comeuppance, and his only regret
was that he'd missed seeing the action for himself!
Next time I'll tell you how we had a Royal engagement, and
then later became branded as "subversives"!
Johnny.
Copyright ©Michael
Knell 2008.
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JOHNNY’S JOURNAL
Chapter 17
Subversives On Tap!
Over the following months I was pleased to learn how
much Brian had come to mean to Steven too. He wasn't
just suffering him because of me. Whenever I was away
overnight because of business they would often go out
together, and have sex and sleep together, always both
telling me on my return. That was usually enough for
us to all straightaway go upstairs for a threesome,
where I would be reimbursed for all that I had missed.
There were some people unable to believe how well our
strange set-up worked. One even asked: who had the sex
and who made the coffee? But it wasn't like that at
all, none of us were ever excluded.
We had a lot of fun with Brian's disco, and went out
with him on all the jobs, though he didn't take too
many bookings - he didn't have to any more and could
be choosey. Lumbering the equipment in and out was
hard work, especially as it grew at an alarming
 rate.
Not a week would go by without one of us buying
something new for it, until it got to
the stage where three or four discos could have been
made out of
it, and so rarely did anything like all of it ever go
out. It was hilarious fun, especially the wedding
receptions where you would see many a
"You've Been Framed" situation. Kelly Marie's: "Feels
Like I'm In Love" (charting 16 weeks late 1980) was
always very popular, and with two 12" versions we
could mix them continuously and have bets on which
old-timer would drop first. Wicked!
Every few months we would throw a gay party at the
house, having even taken a wall out to accommodate the
disco and the dancing, and at other times we would be
asked to cart it along to someone else's party. Being
on the "party circuit" we had quite a busy social
life. Then came Charles and Diana's wedding day
celebrations, where we were asked to provide the music
locally and took everything out with us to entertain
at the street party event on the green behind the Lord
Montague. With all the extra amps and lighting, I
think we probably entertained half of Denbridge. It
was mind-blowing!
These were times when being gay still wasn't accepted
like it is today, but everybody had a wonderful time
and nobody seemed to object when some of the clan
danced together - it was such a special day.
Noticeably there were a few faces there we hadn't seen
since our housewarming party, which prompted Gloria's
David to suggest Denbridge should have its own gay
social group. As he pointed out: going to the pub
wasn't everybody's cup of tea, some would be
frightened of being seen in a place known by others to
have a gay reputation, and anyway what about all those
that didn't know of it, or where they could go to find
like-minded people, what of them? Steven and I
had been there and done that one, some of the others
too, so within a few months some of us got together
and a gay social group was formed which was discreetly
advertised in the local paper and in Gay News.
 It
was an unequivocal success. Within a few months the
Gays Of Denbridge Society (GODS) had more paid up
members than the largest number of gays ever seen at
the pub. At its peak it amassed 150 members and they
came from all walks of life with so many of them
having something they could put into it to enhance the
group. Mostly guys, but with a quite few gals too, the
monthly Diary of Events was always easily filled with
something for everyone. From Sunday morning walks in
the countryside to the hilarious night hikes, card and
board games evenings, cheese and wine dos, barbecues,
running dinner parties (a different course at every
house), horror video nights, talks with guest
speakers, cinema and theatre visits, camping
expeditions in the summer to weekend trips to
Amsterdam, and countless parties with endless themes,
where the occasional "Come As You Are" surprise
party was always guaranteed to find someone in the
bath, to name but a few of the events held, there was
never a dull moment, and surprisingly more and more
people who had never dared venture to the pub before
felt confident enough to become regulars there, so
even Ron was happy.
 Something
else that became very important to our gay community
between 1980 and 1982 was Doctor Who. We later learned
we weren't alone. Adric (Matthew Waterhouse) soon
became a gay icon. An off-screen gay twenty-year-old
playing an on-screen fourteen-year-old Doctor's
assistant, some of us wanted to mother him; others to
smother him. Whatever, it was compulsive viewing. The
night they killed off his character was unbelievable -
you'd have thought one of us had perished.
At work I was kicking a lot of arse around this time,
and doing many strange things with which Arnold was
finding a lot of difficulty. I was forevermore being
sent for to be asked if I knew what I was doing, and I
must have told him to trust me more times than a vicar
to a choirboy. So when I sold off most of his
equipment, and began hiring what we needed as and when
we needed it (because that way we could keep up with
all the latest technology without making never-ending
major investments), the arse-in-the-air's ring-piece
tightened so much it nearly healed over. I think he
was ready to sack me the morning I turned down a local
job worth all of ten grand (quite a lot of money
then), but you should have seen his face when I at the
same time handed him the contract I had already
countersigned, so it just awaited his signature. With
a household name of confectioners it was for a
quarter-of-a-million smackers. He nearly died on the
spot.
Once the commercial hit the television and cinema
screens everybody in the game wanted to know which
company had produced it, and Arnold's business never
looked back. Within a few months we were turning away
work worth untold amounts of money, and not only
advertising work but local interest filming for
countless locations and news gathering requests too.
Arnold, a right stick-in-the-mud was not ready for
expansion yet, and I couldn't persuade him - I think
he was frightened he might lose control of everything
if it became too big - so my easy life became
even easier, and a hell of a lot more financially
rewarding. Brian's too - I saw to that!
The
gay group continued to prosper, we even had a
policewoman amongst our number by then, but it wasn't
until a handsome young policeman joined the group as
well that we learned an awful truth. As our phone
number was one of those advertised for the group, he
asked me: had we noticed the midnight "ting"? He
revealed all the advertised numbers were being
monitored by the police, and subsequently some of
those of friends we regularly called, or who called
us. It was unbelievable, but the guy insisted it was
the truth - he was one of those that had to sit there
for hours to start the recorder when a marked phone
came into use. As far as the establishment was
concerned, he told us, gays were subversives and
needed watching. Strangely the establishment must have
believed we subversives couldn't speak between
midnight and nine in the morning, as those hours were
never monitored - perhaps they thought we all rutted
then. Thinking about it, I suppose many of us did!
Apparently it all took place in a building behind a
local bingo hall. Hundreds of local lines were "of
interest" - most of them Irish, and we had a lot of
them in the town. I happened to mention this to Alf on
one of our visits. He said he wasn't surprised - his
friend, a scrap man, had the job of clearing a lot of
equipment from the place when it was updated a year or
two back. He thought everyone knew all the Irish
phones were monitored because of the IRA threat, and
appreciated the ridiculousness of the Home Secretary
standing up in Parliament once a year to reveal the
number of phones tapped as being in single figures!
We certainly noticed that "ting" every day around
midnight since being told of it, but I still remained
a little sceptical until several years later when an
excited Alf turned up to drag me along to the building
so I could witness for myself all the equipment being
removed as with technological advancement tapping had
gone automatic, now taking place elsewhere. The untidy
lot hadn't even bothered to remove the evidence of it
being a police building as folders, papers and notes
were to be found strewn everywhere. It also backed up
something one of the speakers revealed once at one of
our social gatherings when the topic for the night was
what would happen in the event of a nuclear war -
something frequently discussed in those days of the
Cold War. He too claimed gays were classed as
subversives. Whether or not they would be rounded up
in the event of imminent war was at that time still
very debateable, but one thing was for sure - no known
homosexuals were supposed to be on the lists of people
with places reserved in the few nuclear bunkers that
existed for those thought "important" enough to
warrant saving. I guess that probably had something to
do with our lack of breeding!
Next time: a gay disco night opens at a local
nightclub, AIDS raises its ugly head in Denbridge, and
we all sit around at safer sex group nights playing
with condoms and candles - well, it always started
with the candles!
Johnny.
Copyright ©Michael
Knell 2008.
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JOHNNY’S JOURNAL
Chapter 18
Getting It Up and Rolling It Down!
For most of the eighties, I was content with my lot in
life. I still had Steven, and with Brian we were a
very close unit. The three of us were now sleeping
together all the time since the extra large bed
arrived. We all had good jobs, with quite a lot of
money coming into the house every month. Mind you, we
also spent quite a lot of money every month too!
After the way Steven and I had enjoyed the short
sleeping around episode just prior to moving here, and
once here I had the fling with Brian that thankfully
turned out favourably where it so easily could have
been a disaster, it was strange that none of us looked
for anything outside of our three-way relationship.
But that's the way it was. There were plenty of offers
for all of us, we were very popular people, and there
were no rules made prohibiting it - the only hard and
fast rule we had between us was to always be honest
with each other, and to hide nothing. Nevertheless,
sleeping around just didn't happen.
This was a time when a lot gay people emerged from the
closet, many of them not creeping out of it but
throwing the door wide-open and screaming to the
world: "Here I am, darlings - look at me!"
Suddenly it became fashionable to be gay. All the best
pop music, dance music, clothes, and hair-dos were
being born out of gay. Even straight people made a
point of being seen in the growing number of openly
gay venues in our cities, so the rumours could be
spread about them. Gay was not only fashionable, it
was making some people a lot of money.
 So
it was no surprise when the Grapevine, a tired and not
very popular Denbridge nightclub, started a gay night
on Mondays - its least popular time when basically it
would otherwise have been empty. After a hesitant
start, because the police were caught taking the
registration numbers of all the cars in its car park
on the first night, it grew in popularity and became a
weekly "must" for a lot of people, including us. Many
enjoyable Monday nights were spent there, only to be
cursed at the next morning as tired and with a
hangover we needed to go to work.
There was one memorable night in its early days when
Gloria and Rosie accidentally met up at the bar. I
don't know who started it but the cat fight - the
first real one I'd seen - was spectacular and went on
for many minutes, with the two bouncers unable to stop
it. Skin, blood, gore, hair, and pieces of torn
clothing were flying off them in all directions, and
their profanities almost drowned the music. They were
both barred afterwards, of course. At one point, Bebe,
a cute and much-loved young theatrical thing with the
real name of Daniel, and one we had fully appreciated
ourselves several times in our short sleeping around
with Gloria era, had asked Steven (quite a local hero
since that time he floored Rosie) whether he was going
to intervene. His aptly loud reply of: "Am I f##k!"
will never be forgotten.
Gay people started moving around a lot in the
eighties. They were affluent years, and for the first
time car-loads of us would visit gay bars and clubs in
all the surrounding towns and cities, even going so
far as London. Of course, we had all heard of
something that was said to be killing gay men in
America, and even knew there had been cases reported
in this country too, but like the fatal traffic
accident we thought such things only happened to other
people - until Bebe became ill. He did not respond to
normal medication, withering away in front of our
eyes, and the doctors became very concerned. Within
just eight months he died, and it was a terrible and
painful death for the poor guy, despite all the
medical profession tried to do for him. Officially he
died of a cancer, but one acquired as an AIDS related
illness. The news absolutely stunned Denbridge.
Everybody had loved Bebe, and literally so for the
many of us who'd been with him.
Some didn't want to know, but most went along to the
special clinic at the hospital for a blood test where
it took a whole week of waiting before the result of
it was known, and even then another test was required
after three months of totally abstaining from sex with
other people before any all clear was conclusive.
Steven, Brian and myself took time off work and
visited a clinic in London's Harley Street for our
tests, where for no small amount of money we were able
to learn the results within a couple of hours.
Thankfully, we all tested negative. Even knowing we
would not have kept anything from each other, so
serious was this that we still repeated the exercise
three months later, and were again all found to be
okay.
 The
gay group organisers, and that included us, went
overboard to find out everything possible about HIV
and AIDS. Safer sex advice was regularly published in
the monthly newsletter, along with the latest death
toll which was growing at an alarming rate, and every
month there would be a safer sex "teach-in" for the
guys (normally held at our place) where everybody
learned how to unwrap a condom and correctly fit it on
a candle - and at times we even used a marrow to prove
they would fit all sizes. This was practiced until
everyone could do it with the lights off, and as
serious as these nights were everybody was encouraged
to drink heavily, so they regularly turned into
well-attended riotous affairs. The lights would be
turned back on each time to find more and more of
those present, half-cut and with no inhibitions, would
have fitted their condom to the real thing. It was a
lot of fun, and of course once everybody could perform
the task second nature in the dark even when drunk, we
had succeeded in what we set out to achieve.
 However
one night, once everyone was proficient at correctly
putting on the condoms, Gloria, never one to miss a
trick, volunteered herself to be the dummy on a
mattress in the middle of the floor so that the real
thing, the whole sexual act where the essential
regular checking of the condom and its proper removal
afterwards could be practiced. She obviously couldn't
resist the thought of all those members! But after
struggling a mattress down the stairs, unfortunately
for her - and for us after getting the damn mattress!
- there were no takers. I think, like ourselves,
everybody who had ever wanted to had already been
there and done that one! Poor Gloria. And poor David
too - he alone now was left to demonstrate for us, and
then only managing to do it with difficulty. How can
you get excited about putting on an old overcoat, he
asked, trying hard to get it up for her!
After these uproarious teach-in nights, which were
often hard to bring to an end (intended!), the three
of us were absolutely cock-eyed by the time we got to
bed, so there was always a hell of a lot of sex to be
had before we were able to get off to sleep. We would
lie awake for hours going over the evening together,
appreciating some of what we'd seen - which would
start things off again! - and creasing up over other
things. Thank God our bedroom wasn't tapped as well as
our phone!
Next time we meet Karl, a thirteen-year-old boy who
phones the group for help because he's gay. With
the age of consent between gay men still at 21 years,
the group go into panic mode. Many of the members are
only eighteen, some barely so, and although officially
they are not having sex as far we are aware -
unofficially we know they are at it like rabbits!
Could this be a trap? Guess who has to find out!
Johnny.
Copyright ©Michael
Knell 2008.
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